in memorium

I have never had someone really close to me die before. I knew it was coming, but not this soon and not this harsh. This has been the longest week of my life so far. i will miss Jerry for the rest of my life and I ache so deeply right now it is a wonder I am even alive right now. I have so many emotions and thoughts running through my head and my heart is aching so badly that I want to believe it is all a nightmare. I feel like I am in a surreal zone right now and at any moment things will clear up and everything will be OK.